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When you finally realize you didn’t matter at all to someone, you begin to wonder if you matter to anyone

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I wish…………

I wish it wasn’t such a dreary day,
I wish that the sun would have stayed.
This darkness brings upon sadness,
Which leads to my madness.
I wish that this rain would bring a rainbow,
I wish that I could follow it wherever it may go.
This feeling of lonliness is deep inside,
This feeling of lonliness causes me to cry.
I wish [...]

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pls come back………..

A dark cloud floats above me, everywhere I go,
No one can see it, but I know it’s there though.
This dark cloud darkens and dampens my spirit,
Not allowing me to be happy, no way to conquer it.
This dark cloud floats above me, letting down it’s tremendous rain,
With my dampened spirit, I feel a heart wrenching pain.
This [...]

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The door of death

Each and every night I cry a river from my pain,
I wait to see if things will get better, but they don’t, they remain the same.
Each and every night I want to die,
For no one will care no matter what everyone says, they lie,
I know they want me dead.
Can’t anyone see the pain they’re causing [...]

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To those who cause me pain

You wonder why I harm myself and feel the way I do,
You’d understand if you look at what you do.
You complain about everything I do and make me feel like I do nothing right and I’m worthless.
Maybe if you told me that you were proud of me or tell me that I did something right [...]

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No 1 can stop me

A line of red appears,
Along my cheek are tears.
I can’t take living much longer,
Specially after what everyone has done to me.
I feel worthless and like I can’t do anything right,
I think about how I don’t matter each night.
The world and everyone in it would be better off without me,
I wouldn’t be missed one bit you’ll [...]

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Falling Deeper….

I’m falling deeper into an eternal sleep,
These wounds I have can’t heal, for they’re too deep.
I’m falling deeper into this dark abyss,
These thoughts of pain, suicide, and death run through my mind aims.
I’m falling deeper into these dark thoughts of mine,
“Die”, “Do it now, no one will care”, and “You’re alone” keeps playing in my
mind.
I’m [...]

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My afflictive note

A strong scratching pain rotates inside my heart
don’t know what to do
don’t want to hurt u,
by knowing u dont love me
i dont want to disturb u even….
but the pain, pain, pain inside me
cant control anymore
i pray today on my knees,
just to let happiness,
will always be there with u
i dont care about myself anymore
dont knw when im [...]

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why dont u save me?

You look like… a perfect fit,
For a guy in need… of a tourniquette.
But can you save me?
If you could save me,
From the ranks of the freaks,
Who suspect they could never love anyone.
‘Cause I can tell… you know what it’s like.
A long farewell… of the hunger strike.
But can you save me?
Come on and save me…
If you [...]

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